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Think fast
I jump
Released from the void
I escaped from the machine
Dead but not lost
I escaped from the machine
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2. |
Fuck the Industry
05:31
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I'm so sick of monotony, got a plan of destruction for the inner-cult masterminds
Let their style and attributes be a tell for their mind-numbing lack of respect for the
Niche following of suffering and pretending to care about what happens at the end of the world
One bar chord played over a slick beat, lulling you into a false sense of non-security
Your black clothes, your "fuck yous"
Do you really think you're different
Counter-culture thievery conducted by consumers
The world in flames consumed by hate
I see a people played by fate
Too obscene for the scene
Too tame, bordering on lame
What, am I not fucking crazy enough for you
Should I sit in my room and let a melody out or two
Is being boring, trite and against the modern view enough to get your sick rocks off, the lot of you
I don't give a fuck what you think of depression or anxiety
At least I have the conviction to show what inside of me
Sorry for not sucking the shit of every multi-millionaire who shows interest for what they don't even care
Your black clothes, your "fuck yous"
Do you really think you're different
Counter-culture thievery conducted by consumers
The world in flames consumed by hate
I see a people played by fate
Something years old, know my life ain't gonna last
While I'm wasting all my time away, thinking about the past
The olden golden days when I wasn't broken
Hoping and examinating all of the clues in between all of the cracks
To find out if there's any hope for me in this fucking place
There's not
But hopelessness is futile
In their eyes, I see a flame
One powered by fame
Looking at their inner-monologue through the source that's to blame
In their eyes, I see a flame
One powered by fame
It seems you're all alone
The veil starts to crack and fade, exposed
What do they know anyway
The industry is not my home
Be more derivative, I implore you
Your place in here is shit, just lie
Forget about those dreams you hold dear
What if I want to fly
It seems you're all alone
The veil starts to crack and fade, exposed
What do they know anyway
The industry is not my home
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3. |
Erratic Thought Patterns
06:26
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I command you to
Be what you want to
Everything you do
Why I believe in you
Can't you see it's killing me
Humanity does not believe
Pretend to bear this cross-section of a better outcome
A change of climate from false words to dead eyes
He thinks he's worthless, their plan is working, a parasite from the depths of hell
Drop all the acting, it's better for you, don't concern yourself with inferior functions
I command you to
Can't you see it's killing me
Humanity does not believe
Pretend to bear this cross-section of a better outcome
A change of climate from false words to dead eyes
He thinks he's worthless, their plan is working, a parasite from the depths of hell
Drop all the acting, it's better for you, don't concern yourself with inferior functions
I command you to
I command you to
Be what you want to
Everything you do
Why I believe in you
I demand that you
Search for what's new
In absence of truth
All you have is you
Losing control of the flames in my head
Pins drop, needles pierce the shadows of my bed
Leaking the essence of a liquid blood-red
Verbose, yet comatose, a figure long dead
I, ego, long, for
For escape
[Need it be repeated like a book
We reach out and still no answer comes, you're selfish you
Push everyone out in moments of desperation, in the hopes that you'll see yourself as sane
Need it be repeated like a book
We reach out and still no answer comes, you're selfish you
Truly, you push them out because you're afraid of others depending on you, you know it's true]
One thinks there'd be more to this black space
Yet it's empty, whispers echo through these walls
I can't recognise the voices yet they sound so familiar
One doubts they're unheard to those outside the mind
Nobody speaks but a million screams are sounding through the halls
One wonders what they want with me
Should I jump, erase everything
All bad memories gone
I shout at faces that nobody sees
Neurotic and born of pain they laugh
At me not with, do you see the reasoning for ending this suffering
One thinks there'd be more to this black space
Yet it's empty, whispers echo through these walls
I can't recognise the voices yet they sound so familiar
One doubts they're unheard to those outside the mind
Nobody speaks but a million screams are sounding through the halls
One wonders what they want with me
Need it be repeated like a book
We reach out and still no answer comes, you're selfish you
Push everyone out in moments of desperation, in the hopes that you'll see yourself as sane
Need it be repeated like a book
We reach out and still no answer comes, you're selfish you
Truly, you push them out because you're afraid of others depending on you, you know it's true
I, ego, long, for
For escape
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Sporadic Delusions
04:36
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Advertising death through a fixed lens
Trusting the greater good by
My own standards, the devil in the mind's eye
Circular reasoning, sense malfunctioning
Cognitive dissonance, God's weapon
Believing in hope for the future
Persistence is the road to death
Everything is faux, just a sporadic delusion
It's not enough to see
First you must be
Nothing's set in stone
Yet still we are alone
Everything we are
Is everything we are not
How have we come this far
When this is all we've got
Breaching centres of consciousness unknown
Everything is code, shimmering, incomplete
Eyes, my own
Revealed to me in a series of imagery
Hiding in plain sight, the snake's lies
Who dares defy fate then cry
Suffering is relative to what's inside
A hollow husk waiting for death in the glowing dusk
Cognitive dissonance, God's weapon
Believing in hope for the future
Persistence is the road to death
Everything is faux, just a sporadic delusion
It's not enough to see
First you must be
Nothing's set in stone
Yet still we are alone
Everything we are
Is everything we are not
How have we come this far
When this is all we've got
You're all delusions
Fighting for my life
Against a blank space occupied by hate
This is who you are
Seven billion figures in a sea of snakes
They drag me down
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5. |
Sorry (Not Sorry)
05:14
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Take another lesson from this life before you fall
Blown apart in pieces from the pain of it all
If I can't change your mind then no one will
Choosy fucking bitches taking hits and throwing pitches
I'm in the ICU holding a picture of you
Wishing this headache would go away
Closing one eye, keeping one open
Nicotine and alcohol rush through my veins
Broken from the drugs and the fucking and the death
A sympathetic whore destroying everything that's left
Cursing all her family not blaming for her own
When will you take responsibility for your wrongs
You are just too soft to die
Scars and all you're beautiful
Even if you can't breathe anymore
Blue skin suits your style anyway
I'm so sorry
I am at a loss for words
Does it matter who I hurt
Cracking, breaking me through the darkness
This means war to everyone except you
Blissfully ignorant to your immediate surroundings
And as you crash and burn
Remember my charred face on the grave
I will take the stride
To defend what's left of you
And the devil waits inside of me
Waiting to come out
The four horsemen will beckon the serpent inside
Breaking apart shards of glass and sticking them in my eyes
You can't see what you can't feel
And thus I push further into the shards
Broken from the drugs and the fucking and the death
A sympathetic whore destroying everything that's left
Cursing all her family not blaming for her own
When will you take responsibility for your wrongs
You are just too soft to die
Scars and all you're beautiful
Even if you can't breathe anymore
Blue skin suits your style anyway
Skin so soft
Peel it off
Eyes so wide
Deer in lights
So innocent, so misled
I am at a loss for words
Does it matter who I hurt
Cracking, breaking me through the darkness
I'm so sorry
Surrender the hollow
Shadow you used to follow
Green eyes, yet juxtaposed
Against a deathly pose
Stumbling into walls
The echos in these halls
Calling my name
The one of infame
A four-letter word
Something often heard
A signal of the end-times
With nothing else it rhymes
AAAA
This means war to everyone except you
Blissfully ignorant to your immediate surroundings
And as you crash and burn
Remember my charred face on the grave
I am at a loss for words
Does it matter who I hurt
Cracking, breaking me through the darkness
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6. |
Dead Reflection (Vortex)
07:25
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Feed my soul
It's been far too long
I see myself in waves
Is it time to jump in
No
Anew I'm born, was this all a nightmare
Changing styles, changing motions, changing figures
Everything evolves slowly
But then it comes back to the centre
Everything revolves again
Live with synergy
The nonsense is broken
Jump from the edge, begin it all again
Burn all your dreams and die like the rest
I've found myself again, broken and in pain
Maybe when I die finally it will rain
Someday a real rain will come
Someday
I jump
Released from the void
I escaped from the machine
Dead but not lost
I escaped from the machine
Die? I don't want to
It's just being trapped inside everyday
Isolation, the only path
That I have ever taken but it's led me here
The passageway to my utter demise was listening to all of you
You lied to me, said working on myself would make everything better
And now I'm back to where I started
Don't believe a word they tell you, it's written into their code
My identity never defeating
But still I long for meaning
My eyes see what they want, death
Regardless of what I want to see, success
My identity never defeating, me
But still I long for meaning, why
Go
Someday
Throw down the veil, the facade
Is this who you want to be, a fucking failure like me
I can't understand how I got here
A million supporting hands, a million snakes in the grass
You don't understand me
You don't support me
Erased from the machine
Erased from the machine
It will snow, does it hurt
Once again, know it does
It will snow, does it hurt
In our hearts, it's okay
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You are the sinner and the lamb
The martyr and the wicked fallen star
Your suffering's evolved
No longer hell on earth
The one becomes the all
And after all is gone
Your skull's in infinite rebirth
Crisis envelops me
A suffering felt, not seen
You have no right to believe
The lifeline, sorrow deemed
Failure
This world was made for suffering
(This world was made for suffering)
Reborn again; this hellish dream
(Reborn again; this hellish dream)
You are the sinner and the lamb
Fall and surrender wicked star
Become
Cold, secluded
Lost inside a dream
Was it truly real
Am I not dead still
This is not your home
Go back and face your own
Binary calculations complete, you're dethroned
I will make you see
The error of your ways
Giving up on life
Give up on her, on them
Fuck
Can't wake up
Help me
I'm drowning in the waves
Was it ever really worth it
I think not
You've seen all I've done
It's not enough, it's never enough
I kept trying for myself
Not you, not any of you
One more drink, I'm neck deep in this shit that I've writ
I'm so cool I'm so clean, I don't need anything
Please don't-pulling back now, something's off can feel it
Eyes opening, wake up please wake up please wake up
Please wake up
Please wake up you're drowning
See if I give a shit, I'm sleeping for eternity
Cast into the black sea to bloodlet what's inside of me
I can't fucking sleep, trite words far as the eyes can see
Observations stifled while I suffocate, leave me be
And still I call out for someone to hear me
It seems the dream's over and here I am, safe
What even happened back there, I can't remember
Something about a girl, a bridge and I think I hurt her
Now
I've escaped the dream
It doesn't matter what I did because it never was real it seems
Now I'm safe
Wake up
I'm alive
How long have I been asleep
Consciousness eludes me
Hungover from nightmares
Pulling out this dreamstate
Alpha waves, fluoride stare
Hooked into the machine
You, what year is it
Stop putting needles in my skin
Aren't you one of my kin
Aren't you one of me
Passing out now
Fade to black
Can't remember home, not a trace
Am I in the ward, what is this place
Did I escape from the machine
Dead but not lost
I escaped from the machine
You are the sinner and the lamb
Fall and surrender wicked star
Become
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Rain (God Is Weeping)
05:57
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What is wrong
(What is wrong)
Why aren't you happy
(The pills aren't working)
Twenty-one, year of the rabbit
So elusive, were it closer I could grab it
I take my leave, no longer static
My schizophrenia is keeping me manic
And then we see the warnings
But we saw them far too late
As he takes his last step
It's raining
I'm not sorry for what I've done
You ignored me showed me no remorse
My inhibitions are failing tempt me
Do it
As I take a look at the gun I'm holding
I remember good times, I remember good times
It seems to distant next to now
Already a year I don't know how
Apparently this was my life
A proper way to spend my time
And then we see the warnings
But we saw them far too late
As he takes his last step
It's raining
Something feels off the kilter
I'm real, am I real
Something tells me I'm not
This is not in my mind
I'm telling you, something's out there
Fate observes, no one's preserved
Not that she would listen if I screamed out anyway
Please let sleep peacefully
Just one night I want to sleep
Draining my own confidence
Just to have reason to fail
Then I fall
Bleeding all the sheep
To run their sick machine
Not content with dissolution of state
We want our lives back
I'll fight tooth and nail for myself, not any of you
Fight
I'll stick by the side of my friends
You're not them
Another time I'll actualise
Being myself was vain anyway
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[Mostly improvisation]
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10. |
Rain (Mahakali)
05:05
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Om kring kalikaye namah namahai
Om kring kalikaye namah namahai
Om kring kalikaye namah namahai
Om kring kalikaye namah namahai
Om kali mahakali kalike parameshwari
Sarva ananda kare devi
Narayani namostute
I see I'm none
Ego rapture gone
Fire in my eyes
Is this reality
Who am I
I know what I see now
My entire life was a lie
Om kring kalikaye namah namahai
Om kring kalikaye namah namahai
Om kring kalikaye namah namahai
Om kring kalikaye namah namahai
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Solace in Sleep
03:59
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Exhaustion overcomes me
When does the veil fade away
Brainfog, memory hog
Nonsensical patterns make sense to me
They won't let me be
Shut the fuck up, I can't sleep
Indiscriminately casting blame
On those I thought I loved
Can't you be satisfied
Live before you die
A non sequitur from closed eyes
I have exhausted all possibilities
One of these days I want to be free
I don't believe you truly understand
When it all ends, there is no further plan
This world is my hallucination, not theirs to keep
In death I'll find solace in sleep
Live before you die
A non sequitur from closed eyes
Breathe in and out then repeat
Live before you die
A non sequitur from closed eyes
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