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Reflections Demo Sessions

by Absence of Truth

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1.
Think fast I jump Released from the void I escaped from the machine Dead but not lost I escaped from the machine
2.
I'm so sick of monotony, got a plan of destruction for the inner-cult masterminds Let their style and attributes be a tell for their mind-numbing lack of respect for the Niche following of suffering and pretending to care about what happens at the end of the world One bar chord played over a slick beat, lulling you into a false sense of non-security Your black clothes, your "fuck yous" Do you really think you're different Counter-culture thievery conducted by consumers The world in flames consumed by hate I see a people played by fate Too obscene for the scene Too tame, bordering on lame What, am I not fucking crazy enough for you Should I sit in my room and let a melody out or two Is being boring, trite and against the modern view enough to get your sick rocks off, the lot of you I don't give a fuck what you think of depression or anxiety At least I have the conviction to show what inside of me Sorry for not sucking the shit of every multi-millionaire who shows interest for what they don't even care Your black clothes, your "fuck yous" Do you really think you're different Counter-culture thievery conducted by consumers The world in flames consumed by hate I see a people played by fate Something years old, know my life ain't gonna last While I'm wasting all my time away, thinking about the past The olden golden days when I wasn't broken Hoping and examinating all of the clues in between all of the cracks To find out if there's any hope for me in this fucking place There's not But hopelessness is futile In their eyes, I see a flame One powered by fame Looking at their inner-monologue through the source that's to blame In their eyes, I see a flame One powered by fame It seems you're all alone The veil starts to crack and fade, exposed What do they know anyway The industry is not my home Be more derivative, I implore you Your place in here is shit, just lie Forget about those dreams you hold dear What if I want to fly It seems you're all alone The veil starts to crack and fade, exposed What do they know anyway The industry is not my home
3.
I command you to Be what you want to Everything you do Why I believe in you Can't you see it's killing me Humanity does not believe Pretend to bear this cross-section of a better outcome A change of climate from false words to dead eyes He thinks he's worthless, their plan is working, a parasite from the depths of hell Drop all the acting, it's better for you, don't concern yourself with inferior functions I command you to Can't you see it's killing me Humanity does not believe Pretend to bear this cross-section of a better outcome A change of climate from false words to dead eyes He thinks he's worthless, their plan is working, a parasite from the depths of hell Drop all the acting, it's better for you, don't concern yourself with inferior functions I command you to I command you to Be what you want to Everything you do Why I believe in you I demand that you Search for what's new In absence of truth All you have is you Losing control of the flames in my head Pins drop, needles pierce the shadows of my bed Leaking the essence of a liquid blood-red Verbose, yet comatose, a figure long dead I, ego, long, for For escape [Need it be repeated like a book We reach out and still no answer comes, you're selfish you Push everyone out in moments of desperation, in the hopes that you'll see yourself as sane Need it be repeated like a book We reach out and still no answer comes, you're selfish you Truly, you push them out because you're afraid of others depending on you, you know it's true] One thinks there'd be more to this black space Yet it's empty, whispers echo through these walls I can't recognise the voices yet they sound so familiar One doubts they're unheard to those outside the mind Nobody speaks but a million screams are sounding through the halls One wonders what they want with me Should I jump, erase everything All bad memories gone I shout at faces that nobody sees Neurotic and born of pain they laugh At me not with, do you see the reasoning for ending this suffering One thinks there'd be more to this black space Yet it's empty, whispers echo through these walls I can't recognise the voices yet they sound so familiar One doubts they're unheard to those outside the mind Nobody speaks but a million screams are sounding through the halls One wonders what they want with me Need it be repeated like a book We reach out and still no answer comes, you're selfish you Push everyone out in moments of desperation, in the hopes that you'll see yourself as sane Need it be repeated like a book We reach out and still no answer comes, you're selfish you Truly, you push them out because you're afraid of others depending on you, you know it's true I, ego, long, for For escape
4.
Advertising death through a fixed lens Trusting the greater good by My own standards, the devil in the mind's eye Circular reasoning, sense malfunctioning Cognitive dissonance, God's weapon Believing in hope for the future Persistence is the road to death Everything is faux, just a sporadic delusion It's not enough to see First you must be Nothing's set in stone Yet still we are alone Everything we are Is everything we are not How have we come this far When this is all we've got Breaching centres of consciousness unknown Everything is code, shimmering, incomplete Eyes, my own Revealed to me in a series of imagery Hiding in plain sight, the snake's lies Who dares defy fate then cry Suffering is relative to what's inside A hollow husk waiting for death in the glowing dusk Cognitive dissonance, God's weapon Believing in hope for the future Persistence is the road to death Everything is faux, just a sporadic delusion It's not enough to see First you must be Nothing's set in stone Yet still we are alone Everything we are Is everything we are not How have we come this far When this is all we've got You're all delusions Fighting for my life Against a blank space occupied by hate This is who you are Seven billion figures in a sea of snakes They drag me down
5.
Take another lesson from this life before you fall Blown apart in pieces from the pain of it all If I can't change your mind then no one will Choosy fucking bitches taking hits and throwing pitches I'm in the ICU holding a picture of you Wishing this headache would go away Closing one eye, keeping one open Nicotine and alcohol rush through my veins Broken from the drugs and the fucking and the death A sympathetic whore destroying everything that's left Cursing all her family not blaming for her own When will you take responsibility for your wrongs You are just too soft to die Scars and all you're beautiful Even if you can't breathe anymore Blue skin suits your style anyway I'm so sorry I am at a loss for words Does it matter who I hurt Cracking, breaking me through the darkness This means war to everyone except you Blissfully ignorant to your immediate surroundings And as you crash and burn Remember my charred face on the grave I will take the stride To defend what's left of you And the devil waits inside of me Waiting to come out The four horsemen will beckon the serpent inside Breaking apart shards of glass and sticking them in my eyes You can't see what you can't feel And thus I push further into the shards Broken from the drugs and the fucking and the death A sympathetic whore destroying everything that's left Cursing all her family not blaming for her own When will you take responsibility for your wrongs You are just too soft to die Scars and all you're beautiful Even if you can't breathe anymore Blue skin suits your style anyway Skin so soft Peel it off Eyes so wide Deer in lights So innocent, so misled I am at a loss for words Does it matter who I hurt Cracking, breaking me through the darkness I'm so sorry Surrender the hollow Shadow you used to follow Green eyes, yet juxtaposed Against a deathly pose Stumbling into walls The echos in these halls Calling my name The one of infame A four-letter word Something often heard A signal of the end-times With nothing else it rhymes AAAA This means war to everyone except you Blissfully ignorant to your immediate surroundings And as you crash and burn Remember my charred face on the grave I am at a loss for words Does it matter who I hurt Cracking, breaking me through the darkness
6.
Feed my soul It's been far too long I see myself in waves Is it time to jump in No Anew I'm born, was this all a nightmare Changing styles, changing motions, changing figures Everything evolves slowly But then it comes back to the centre Everything revolves again Live with synergy The nonsense is broken Jump from the edge, begin it all again Burn all your dreams and die like the rest I've found myself again, broken and in pain Maybe when I die finally it will rain Someday a real rain will come Someday I jump Released from the void I escaped from the machine Dead but not lost I escaped from the machine Die? I don't want to It's just being trapped inside everyday Isolation, the only path That I have ever taken but it's led me here The passageway to my utter demise was listening to all of you You lied to me, said working on myself would make everything better And now I'm back to where I started Don't believe a word they tell you, it's written into their code My identity never defeating But still I long for meaning My eyes see what they want, death Regardless of what I want to see, success My identity never defeating, me But still I long for meaning, why Go Someday Throw down the veil, the facade Is this who you want to be, a fucking failure like me I can't understand how I got here A million supporting hands, a million snakes in the grass You don't understand me You don't support me Erased from the machine Erased from the machine It will snow, does it hurt Once again, know it does It will snow, does it hurt In our hearts, it's okay
7.
You are the sinner and the lamb The martyr and the wicked fallen star Your suffering's evolved No longer hell on earth The one becomes the all And after all is gone Your skull's in infinite rebirth Crisis envelops me A suffering felt, not seen You have no right to believe The lifeline, sorrow deemed Failure This world was made for suffering (This world was made for suffering) Reborn again; this hellish dream (Reborn again; this hellish dream) You are the sinner and the lamb Fall and surrender wicked star Become Cold, secluded Lost inside a dream Was it truly real Am I not dead still This is not your home Go back and face your own Binary calculations complete, you're dethroned I will make you see The error of your ways Giving up on life Give up on her, on them Fuck Can't wake up Help me I'm drowning in the waves Was it ever really worth it I think not You've seen all I've done It's not enough, it's never enough I kept trying for myself Not you, not any of you One more drink, I'm neck deep in this shit that I've writ I'm so cool I'm so clean, I don't need anything Please don't-pulling back now, something's off can feel it Eyes opening, wake up please wake up please wake up Please wake up Please wake up you're drowning See if I give a shit, I'm sleeping for eternity Cast into the black sea to bloodlet what's inside of me I can't fucking sleep, trite words far as the eyes can see Observations stifled while I suffocate, leave me be And still I call out for someone to hear me It seems the dream's over and here I am, safe What even happened back there, I can't remember Something about a girl, a bridge and I think I hurt her Now I've escaped the dream It doesn't matter what I did because it never was real it seems Now I'm safe Wake up I'm alive How long have I been asleep Consciousness eludes me Hungover from nightmares Pulling out this dreamstate Alpha waves, fluoride stare Hooked into the machine You, what year is it Stop putting needles in my skin Aren't you one of my kin Aren't you one of me Passing out now Fade to black Can't remember home, not a trace Am I in the ward, what is this place Did I escape from the machine Dead but not lost I escaped from the machine You are the sinner and the lamb Fall and surrender wicked star Become
8.
What is wrong (What is wrong) Why aren't you happy (The pills aren't working) Twenty-one, year of the rabbit So elusive, were it closer I could grab it I take my leave, no longer static My schizophrenia is keeping me manic And then we see the warnings But we saw them far too late As he takes his last step It's raining I'm not sorry for what I've done You ignored me showed me no remorse My inhibitions are failing tempt me Do it As I take a look at the gun I'm holding I remember good times, I remember good times It seems to distant next to now Already a year I don't know how Apparently this was my life A proper way to spend my time And then we see the warnings But we saw them far too late As he takes his last step It's raining Something feels off the kilter I'm real, am I real Something tells me I'm not This is not in my mind I'm telling you, something's out there Fate observes, no one's preserved Not that she would listen if I screamed out anyway Please let sleep peacefully Just one night I want to sleep Draining my own confidence Just to have reason to fail Then I fall Bleeding all the sheep To run their sick machine Not content with dissolution of state We want our lives back I'll fight tooth and nail for myself, not any of you Fight I'll stick by the side of my friends You're not them Another time I'll actualise Being myself was vain anyway
9.
[Mostly improvisation]
10.
Om kring kalikaye namah namahai Om kring kalikaye namah namahai Om kring kalikaye namah namahai Om kring kalikaye namah namahai Om kali mahakali kalike parameshwari Sarva ananda kare devi Narayani namostute I see I'm none Ego rapture gone Fire in my eyes Is this reality Who am I I know what I see now My entire life was a lie Om kring kalikaye namah namahai Om kring kalikaye namah namahai Om kring kalikaye namah namahai Om kring kalikaye namah namahai
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Exhaustion overcomes me When does the veil fade away Brainfog, memory hog Nonsensical patterns make sense to me They won't let me be Shut the fuck up, I can't sleep Indiscriminately casting blame On those I thought I loved Can't you be satisfied Live before you die A non sequitur from closed eyes I have exhausted all possibilities One of these days I want to be free I don't believe you truly understand When it all ends, there is no further plan This world is my hallucination, not theirs to keep In death I'll find solace in sleep Live before you die A non sequitur from closed eyes Breathe in and out then repeat Live before you die A non sequitur from closed eyes

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released October 8, 2021

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